Wednesday, November 4, 2009 | 12:37 PM

Sunday, November 1, 2009 | 3:25 PM

I've become dreadful of my stay in Tekong. Because nothing seemed smooth sailing right after field camp. Nothing at all. With stress piling up every week, it's hard to keep your mind thinking positive. Not when your bunkmates are so demoralizing, not when your health condition suck.

I miss home. I miss those days where I call the shots, I dictate what I want. With only a mere 1 and a half days of freedom, you cant really push yourself ahead of the week.

Let's hope everything changes for the better.

Sunday, October 25, 2009 | 3:01 PM

Now that field camp is finished, I'm a slight bit light-hearted. Usual recruit life goes on.

Having said that, the uncertainty that comes along makes you worry at the same time.

I miss civilian life. I miss home.

Labels: NS

Sunday, October 18, 2009 | 2:10 PM

Field camp week. Of all times, I fell sick just before field camp. I'm torn apart, whether to still take part in field camp despite being weak and might not able to take the training, or to miss this field camp and join the next one with different people, different demands.

How I wish I could just stay home to recuperate and throw away all these worries that I have. Just wanna have Mom and Dad looking after me and be totally comfortable and spoilt for this once. Reality is, that rigid system and strict regimentation is a total hassle.

I hope that this week would be smooth-sailing for me.

Labels: NS

Sunday, October 11, 2009 | 3:59 PM

Packed. Barely had downtime. Cant even get a good night sleep. I'm going to bookin soon :(

Coming weeks will be some high-key events like Range Tests and Field Camp.

Passed my 2.4km. Mad happy. But Chin-ups, SBJ and Shuttle Run is still quite chui for me. I dont want anymore RTs!!!

Wish me all the best in the persuit of honour and glory.

Monday, September 21, 2009 | 2:12 AM

I'm back from Pulau Tekong! For those who are uninformed, I'm allocated to BMTC Sch 1, Rocky Hill Camp, Quebec COY. Life's been fine inside there, just that worried about my physical fitness level not being able to cope to their expectations. Otherwise, the rest have been smooth-sailing.

Able to bookout for the first week as its the Hari Raya holiday. But gotta be confined for the coming 2 weeks. Booking in soon :(

And now, for all those of you who've been waiting for this moment..

Labels: NS

Sunday, September 13, 2009 | 11:07 PM

The peaceful 2-week holidays ended with an abrupt twist. A heated argument with parents proved once again that they are never really bothered. Apparently the son's enlistment is tomorrow, and they can dilly dally their way till late night before realising that their son is really enlisting tomorrow. Then claimed its my fault and they shall not send me off tomorrow.

Whatever. With my dad - brutally conservative (I'm not sure if its the right way to describe him) and persistent. With my mom - follows totally what my dad says. No matter how much I try to say I love them, there's always something trying to justify that its not really that way.

Nothing could change when the head of the family does not change.

Grandpa's cancer worsened. The last few stages of his life, and yet as a grandson, I gotta serve the nation. But I wont forget what he said to me, "Dont be the first as people will envy, dont be the last as people will loathe."

I hope that Grandpa could pull it together. But whatever happens, I'll always remember him. His struggle through life, he lived his life - to the fullest. I hope he has no regrets.

I'm leaving for the island - in a few hours time. To a beginning without much optimism.

To the past 20 years, it's been an amazing ride. I'm quite a lucky one.

Labels: Life

| 1:12 AM

And now, a lookback at my shortlived, carefree and happy 2 weeks before my NS enlistment starts on September 14th. On most of the days, I've been doing the usual morning jogs and having KFC porridge breakfast.

August 31st Monday
Facial Spa at Celmonze (I think spelled this way) with Daphne. Quite a posh spa salon and the treatment were great! Love that place, I did it for free as its my birthday month's offer! It actually costs freakin' $108 for one treatment!

Then went to Makeover Inc. for a free photoshoot. Modelled for some photos and chose the nice ones. Well, I thought it's kinda pricey for their services and actually have regretted buying more of their services. Well, dont mention about it.

Had Manhattan Fish Market with Daphne at PS. Then sneaked into the R21 theatre to catch Bruno. Dont quite enjoy the movie though.

September 1st Tuesday
Just a casual evening at the library. Rainy day. Alone.

September 2nd Wednesday
Met Junda for a gruelling swimming crash course. The 20 years old me couldnt even fucking swim. And after 4 hours of endless torture (me torturing Junda fyi), I finally got sunburnt and still dont know how to swim. Failure. Slight improvements though :)

Treated Junda to Pizza Hut for his kind favour.

September 3rd Thursday
Met Remes up for a game of badminton with his girlfriend and his buddy Edwin. Was seriously sunburnt and couldnt really enjoy the game cause wasnt quite close with them. But kinda appreciate the company though.

September 4th Friday
Met Maureen up at her workplace. She slimmed down quite abit and looked much more decent from the last time I saw her (oops!). Evening spent with XY watching "I love you, Beth Cooper" at Cineleisure. Quite an okay show :)

September 5th Saturday
The severely sunburnt me went to Bugis to meet the girls - Eve, Grace, Miaohua, Daphne, Kelly for the very last time before my enlistment. Had dinner at some random, overpriced, sucky Ramen place then shopping and slacking around Bugis. Bought a superman tee at sale price.

September 6th Sunday
Out to get myself a new pair of specs and get my eyes tested. Following that met Daphne for dinner at Woodlands :)

September 7th Monday
Out with Weizong to have Mega McSpicy followed by watching Year One at Woodlands Causeway Point. Slacked at Starbucks thereafter, talking about NS experiences.

September 8th Tuesday
Met up with Kenneth (LONG TIME NO SEE) at Orchard and had a nice lunch with him. Walked around Orchard talking about what happened in the past, our plans in the future and what not. Really nice time catching up with him. Dinner at Gelare.

September 9th Wednesday
Went KBOX with Henry. He's enlisting on the Sept 14 to the CMPB. Had a crazy time ktv-ing with him as I, as usual, went out of key. And he still dominates the microphone obviously. Dinner was at Pepper Lunch!

September 10th Thursday
Met up with Daphne at Orchard to catch The Time Traveller's Wife. Nice movie!

September 11th Friday
Went to collect my spectacles, my photoshoot photos and met up with Kelvin Chan and walked around COMEX. Had dinner at Donut Factory.

September 12th Saturday
Whole day spent settling my StarHub mobile line issues. Got a new Nokia E51 Non-camera phone. Had a great dinner with family. Thanks Mom and Dad! :)

---

Shant say more. Shant think too much to make myself worry and panic. I'll just be my own and dont force myself. Relax. 平常心。

Searching the optimist in me! Sept 2011, HERE I COME! :D

Labels: Life